Just another meaningless celebration

Raya is something I don't look forward to
Its more like it doesn't exist in my life.
Just another meaningless celebration
It just pisses me off more since
all this family gathering crap are just hypocrisy and lies linger in the air
I'm tired putting a smile on this mask of mine.
Going back to "kampung" is one thing I never want it at all.
Seeing those nazis trying to dictate the way I live and judging me for who I am
is something I can't accept no matter they are my flesh and blood or not.
Since I'm back to be Seul, I might as well enjoy my solitude
While the rest of people having fun see their relative, gone for holidays or anything..
I just want to sleep on this day rather than being so spiteful to everyone.